So, I got my hair done at a new place

I swear when I saw the hairdresser that was going to do my hair yesterday I briefly thought to myself "this girl looks like a noooooooob". But as I've been taught, you don't judge a book - or in this case, a hairdresser - by its cover. So I didn't, and I agreed to let her dye my hair.

About 40 minutes later, they brought a mirror out to me and I my roots were white and a lot of my hair was - no joke - bright orange. I almost cried. They didn't even take me back out to the salon to fix it up. They left me at the basin where the re-touched it until they thought it was presentable. Even after they were "done" it was way too light - nothing like the colour in the photo I showed them. So they continued to re-touch at the basin and after 2 hours, my hair was at its desired shade.

Trust your instincts: if your hairdresser looks like a noob, they probably are. Don't risk it unless you're okay to have dye burning into your scalp for two and a half hours.

In other news, my hormones are kicking in. Apparently, when you quit, you sign-up for the glory of nature. Great.

Ms vs Miss

Today I decided I don't mind circling "Miss" on forms, selecting it on the web or writing it before my full name on an RSVP. It seems silly that I spent so long using "Ms" like it made a real difference.

I'm a Miss and proud of it!

The Call Centre Girl

These call centre girls sound so mechanical usually. The one I spoke to just then sounded mechanical and... well... sad.

I guess I would be depressed too if idiots like me called up just to save $2 on their line rental.

Easing back in...

Surveys are good because there's no pressure to be witty. Goodnight!

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
probably Lowell

What kind of car do you drive?
I have a choice. Today it's the Tarago

Have you ever had a garage sale?
No

What color is your iPod?
Silver

What kind of dog do you have?
Cattle Dog/Husky

What's for dinner tonight?
Chicken Biryani + Lamb Korma + Garlic Naan

What is the last drink you drank?
Green Tea (Jasmine)

Last time you were sick?
The day before I left for New York (2 Jul)

How long is your hair?
Just below my shoulders

Are you happy right now?
Yeah

What did you say last?
"Byeee"

Who came over last?
Mum

Do you drink beer?
Yes

Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
Nope, I look too much like my mum for people to try that one on me

What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
the Oroton O

What is in your pocket?
N/A

Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend?
My ex-boyfriend

Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with?
Mother

What DVD is in your DVD player?
None

What's something fun you did today?
Visited the girls before their New York trip

What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"?
Cat

What are you listening to right now?
My typing and the dryer in the laundry

What have you had to drink so far today?
Mango juice, Water, Tea, Coffee

When is your birthday?
12/12

What's the area code for your cell phone?
04

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
I didn't buy it, my US cousins sent it in a care package after our 2003 trip

Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror?
Usually rosary beads

How many states in the U.S. have you been to?
Not counting stopovers: 7, I think

What are you going to do after this?
Sleep

What is something you need to go shopping for?
Wine rack

Do you like pickles?
Sure

How about olives?
Sometimes

What is your favorite kind of gum?
Extra

Do you have any tan lines?
Yes, I hope so. They might be very faint, but I'm thinking they are there

Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher?
Miss D Ceravolo

Who was the last person to call you baby?
Lowell

When you're at the grocery store do you used the self checkout?
If I can

Has anyone ever sang to you?
Yes

Has anyone ever given you roses?
Yes

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Maaaaaybe. I'd like to think so!

What is your favorite color?
Teal

What color are your eyes?
Brown

What is a compliment you receive way too often?
"Man I wish I had your..."

How tall are you?
Measured the other week: 163cm

Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
Lowell. I believe two nights ago on the phone.

Do you like your parents?
Yes

Why did your last relationship end?
Grew apart, I guess

Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
Lowell

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
New York

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
Eat

Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
Mother, no question

How long does it take you to shower?
10-15 minutes. Depends how late I get up

Can you do splits?
Nope

Can you use the grill?
Yes

Are you flexible?
Nah

What movie do you want to see?
My Sister's Keeper

What did you on New Years Eve 2008?
theLOFT with the cousins, bfs + girls

Was your mom a cheerleader?
Really?

What is the last letter of your middle name?
e

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
5.5

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
Yes

Are you scared of flying?
Nope

What do you sleep in?
Bed socks, shirt, trackies

Do you have any tatoos?
No

Have you ever been to Los Angeles?
Yes

What jewelry do you wear all the time?
None

What is your favorite song at the moment?
The only one I sing in the car is one by Ne-Yo

What song do you HATE?
I think right now I'm really over BEP - I gotta feeling

Do you like chocolate?
Yes

Are you easy to get along with?
Sometimes

Any up coming events you're excited about?
Birth of my first neice - Ayanna Isobel!

hi

Don't laugh at me.

10 Things to do Before You're 30

Denk blogs the same stuff!

1. Drive a wickedly cool car, even if you have to rent it. "Wickedly cool" is defined as any car that turns heads on the streets. They say life is a journey and you should enjoy the ride.

Still on the TODO list. I'm pretty sure I've ridden in one but I probably don't trust myself to actually drive one. Aren't they all manual? Yeah, I don't do manual...

2. Date against type. Better yet, date somebody "dangerous." Waking up tied to a bed with a person who has more tattoos than brains will give you stories to regale other members of the old-age home in your dotage.

Consider this done.

3. See the world. It's much easier to do when you're 22 and footloose than 35 with two bawling babies in your backpack.

I don't feel like I've seen much, or enough. Especially when I see how many places my high school mates have been to (thanks a lot, Facebook). Still want to finish Asia before I take on Europe. No bawling babies - hopefully just me and my hub.

4. Live in a cool place.

Live? Does stay count? If so, the Hyatt at Coolum takes the cake!

5. If you're going to drink a lot, do it when you're young. Getting sick on cheap white wine after 30 is pretty pathetic. Young drunks sometimes get away with being "cute," though you may still have a lot of apologizing to do. Get this experimentation out of your system and you'll appreciate finer spirits when you get older.

Ft. Lauderdale FI 2004, Waikiki HI 2005... I'm done. Definately.

6. Take risks with your job. Most people end up changing direction in their careers after their 20s anyway, so, take the time to figure out what you want to do. There will be time enough to be a cubicle drone later.

I don't think I've taken risks. I've gone after what I want and I think that's enough... right?

7. Do something physically adventurous. And do it OUTSIDE! No one will ever be remembered for playing Nintendo or watching every single episode of "Friends." Enjoy your body while you're young, push it to its limits!

HEY. I've seen every single episode of Friends (amongst other series')! Got forced into physically adventurous in the ninth grade @ Camp Knox. Then there was Diamond Head and Maunauili Falls a couples year's back. I've (tried to) surf, I've skiied... Still lots to go, definately.

8. Take your parents to dinner. It gives you a chance to show your parents that you are an equal and that you are responsible. It's also a chance to show your appreciation for all those dinners they bought over the years.

Always.

9. Do volunteer work. You may be broke, but you can give your sweat and earnestness to a cause in which you believe. In addition to improving your world, you can allow yourself to be exposed to others in the world.

Planted a few plants once, went to a few benefits... probably not enough though. There's a difference between doing volunteer work and doing something you want to do without any benefits to you, at all.

10. Use this decade to go to extremes. Climb the tallest mountain you can find. Picnic at midnight. Learn to sail. Talk to strangers. Road trip to New Orleans for Mardi Gras. Take a midnight drive to the beach then stick around for dawn.

Tallest mountain - Diamond Head? Balmoral at sunrise... okay, still got a bit to go =|

why won't you give me a chance

I have a feeling, and correct me if I'm wrong, that you're one of those lost souls. One of those guys constantly on a quest to find themselves. And normally I'd find that romantic if I thought you had a chance of succeeding - but I don't.

Why is that?

Because you can't stand to let anyone down - you can't say no. That's why everyone likes you. That's why you'll probably get more dates than I do tonight. But you're never gonna find yourself if you don't do what you wanna do and not care what anyone else thinks.

So you don't care if anyone likes you?

I try not to.

Y'know maybe you're afraid that if you care about someone, you might get hurt if you do?

Maybe. But that conversation will take longer than three minutes.

-- What About Brian Season 2 Episode 7

two.

Baby, it was uncool to love me
Then leave me standing here now
Without a goodbye
And maybe I am the fool you call me
Cause I'll be here standing, waiting
To hear you say to me

I'm ready (you know I'm ready)
To love you (to love you)
Forever (forever)
And ever, baby
Come and love me forever more

Sometimes, when I'm alone I feel sad
Cause I know you'll leave me once again
And take my pride
And maybe I am the fool you call me
Cause I'll be here standing, waiting
To hear you say to me

I'm ready (you know I'm ready)
To love you (to love you)
Forever (forever)
And ever, baby
Come and love me forever more

And once again I'll be right here
Waiting to share your love
But oh this time for once
We'll forever be in love

tevin campbell - i'm ready

Honestly

In the spirt of 'brutally honest' (sortof)...

40 Secrets About Yourself

1. What Is your natural hair color?
Honestly: dark brown to almost black

2. Where was your default pic taken?
Honestly: myspace - at alisa/lori's 25th birthday do - it's me and vin showing off our good sides; blogger - some pizza place at copacabana

3. What's your middle name?
Honestly: angeline

4. Your current relationship status?
Honestly: waiting

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
Honestly: pretty sure

6. What is your current mood?
Honestly: overly-relaxed - so much so that i have a headache

7.What color underwear are you wearing?
Honestly: pink

8.What makes you happy?
Honestly: hugs

10. If you could go back in time, and change something what you would change?
Honestly: how immature i was when i made some bad choices

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?
Honestly: a bird

12. Ever had a near death experience?
Honestly: when veed turned the scooter into the wrong lane and we had cars driving at us in samui

13. Something you do a lot?
Honestly: eat

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Honestly: luther - so amazing

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Honestly: denk

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Honestly: jennifer connelly

17. When was the last time you cried?
Honestly: last sunday

18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Honestly: yep

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Honestly: too easy... teleportation

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
Honestly: smile

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Honestly: skinny vanilla latte

22. What's your biggest secret?
Honestly: funny...

23. Favorite color?
Honestly: to wear, probably teal, brown and purple...

24. When was the last time you lied?
Honestly: "hello, i have a problem with BlackBox, it's green"

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Honestly: does 'Happy Feet' count? rarely though... i'm never home for kiddy TV time

27. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Honestly: nada. i think i ate too much at lunch

28. Do you speak any other language?
Honestly: i can read japanese characters, i can speak a bit of tagalog, spanish, japanese...

29. What's your favourite smell?
Honestly: bread from town hall's german bakery

30. If you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
Honestly: exciting

31. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
Honestly: yesterday

33. What are you thinking about right now?
Honestly: dinner

34. What should you be doing?
Honestly: something other than sitting here doing myspace surveys

35. What was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
Honestly: my dog chewed my underwear and my newest bikini this morning

36. How often do you pray?
Honestly: not enough

37. Do you like working in the yard?
Honestly: when i have to

38. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Honestly: i luff mine - redoblado

39. Do you act differently around your crush?
Honestly: yuhuh... i believe is an retardard

40. Name one song that reminds you of an ex?
Honestly: "everything you are" coko and tevin campbell

You have 7 unheard messages

... and that's when I decided they were meant to be

The Office - Season 2, Episode 14

Daydreamin'

Day dreaming and im thinking of you
Look at my mind
Floating away

Hes the kind of guy that would say
Hey baby lets get away
Lets go some place
Huh
Where I don't care
Hes the kind of guy that you give
Your everything, trust your heart share
All of your love till death do us part
I wanna be what he wants
When he wants it and whenever he needs it
And whenever hes lonesome love starved
ill be there to feed it

Im loving him a little bit more each day
Turns me right on when I hear him say

Hey baby lets get away
Lets go somewhere
Where I don't care

***

Today was my first day back at work after the Thailand holiday that blew me away... blew me right away! I loved it! Ya'll will love it...!

Photos are up: http://www.imagestation.com/members/nelisa

Seeya!

exceptional

You're beautiful but you don't know
Can't see what's there inside your soul
Always feelin like you're not good enough
You wish you could be someone else
Sometimes you just can't see yourself
But I can see just who you are, who you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

You never you think you measure up
Never smart or cool, or pretty enough
Always feeling different from all the rest, oh
You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in
I think you're perfect in the skin you're in
You're just perfect just how you are, just how you are, yeah

If you could see the one I see when I see you
You'd know how lucky you are to be you
I see through into you

firsts

For some people, it's the first smile
... the first glance
... others, the first kiss
... the first time he held their hand
... the first embrace
... or even the first time they made love

I remember it like it was yesterday.

For me, it was the first time he opened the door to get out of the car, turned around, and kissed me goodbye.

Fight or Flight ?

Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. Family . . . Love . . . Sex. But we only need one thing . . . To actually be alive. We need a beating heart. When our heart is threatened . . . we respond in one of two ways. We either run or . . . we attack. There's a scientific term for this: Fight . . . or flight. It's instinct . . . We can't control it. Or can we?

Ever since I watched that episode of Grey's Anatomy (best show EVER!) I've gone back and forth on what my attitude is when my heart is threatened. I decided that, obviously, it depends on the threat level - what's at stake.

Instinctively, I think I'm a fighter. I remember a couple of years back - all the forces against me, all the shaking heads... all the signs telling me to get the hell out and flee. Looking back, I really don't think I could be happy right now had I fleed. Sure, I told myself countless (countless) times to turn away and run but my heart, the very thing I should have fleed to protect, wouldn't let me.

I couldn't not be a fighter. I don't want to be that person who turns a blind eye to obvious problems, the fool that forever hopes that it'll all be okay if I gave it time, the person who runs away from relationships because the slightest chance that my heart's going to suffer - the closer I get - scares me.

I want to know I've done all I can, even though my heart is at risk of getting battered even more. Fighting means there's a chance I'll lose.

I'm an optimist.

I focus on the potential gain... whether it be a broken heart that knows the truth, or ...... more, much more.

In some situations though, I have to flee... I have to be ignorant. Ironically, flight is often part of the fighting strategy.

from the top shelf - from a long time ago

Ok. I have a problem L and Y were on 3-way and I was just talking to Y. He mad up this sh_t about L being in the States. Then he said, "Since L's in the states, do you wanna go out?" I was so shocked! I turned him down and then when I was only talking to L, HE asked me out. I couldn't say anything coz I was all scared. But Y was just playin' with my head. They got our letter

It started here, and ends now. I can only really blame myself for what's happened. I knew it was wrong well before it ever started but one idea of someone actulaly giving me THAT kind of attention excited me and it just felt good. Now it feels cr_p. I didn't have to go tonight, I knew that. I'm still trying to work out why I went. I can't just say I felt pressured because saying 'no' was always an option. But something devlish made that impossible. I felt the consequences of falling into temptation. I felt like I've lost part of my dignity because I let another boy control my feelings. Tonight the bubble popped. Hopefully I can control myself, fight my weaknesses because I owe it to myself to be happy. Part of me is happy that tonight happened because now I can start gaining control of my feelings and I can come down from the artificial high cloud of "happiness"... I guess we'll always have C L

I wanted so much to speak to you last night and I admit I was wondering what was going on, but the missed call made waking up so easy. I don't want a lot to change too fast. I don't think either of us is ready for that. I just hope that things work out the way they're supposed to - whatever the outcome may be

My computer broke down last night. Well, I stuffed it up. During the long wait for the the OS to be checked and for files to copy and install, I managed to find old journals, old uni diaries, random notebooks hiding the thoughts I never wanted to share.

I don't blog nearly as much as I wish I could these days. Sometimes I wonder whether I should be writing more stuff down. Reading back on things that made me stress out, smile, laugh and cry remind me of where I've come from, what I've experienced and the lessons I've learnt... or tried to teach myself.

Maybe I should start again...

In other news...
My Uncle Joel's going to be a Daddy. I'm so excited!

i'm probably more of a chicken masala

Stacy: Our relationship is like an addiction. It's— like—
House: Really good drugs?
Stacy: No, it's like— vindaloo curry.
House: Ok, sure—
Stacy: Really, really hot Indian curry they make with red chilli peppers.
House: I know what it is! Didn't think it was addictive.
Stacy: You're abrasive and annoying and come on way too strong, like... vindaloo curry. When you're crazy about curry, that's fine but no matter how much you love curry, you have too much of it, it takes the roof of your mouth off. And then you never want to see curry for a really, really long time but you wake up one day and you think... god I really miss curry. You're a jerk.

just as i thought...

You're Ginnie! You're a perfectionist, driven for success in all you do. You're not satisfied with being less than great at anything you do. Family and love is equally important to you, of course.
Take this quiz!

the argument for idealists

Once you say you're going to settle for second, that's what happens to you in life

-- John F. Kennedy

Let me tell you something true...

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... it actually hurt more than I thought it would to write that.

they tell me not to complain

... but there's NO freaking way I'm treated the same as my younger sister - NO FREAKING WAY!

Apparently, I am going to curse this house. This is what he thinks of me - I'm a curse. That's nice to know. Then he wonders why I don't even bother to try to get along with him sometimes. I'm so over it.

Judge me all you want. Just don't blame me if I start to hate you.

SEEYA!