understanding

xscape - understanding
kandi - just so you know

I only downloaded the first song because I was looking for b2k's "understanding" but I got Xscape's version instead. Turns out pretty nice too! The second song I got because I remembered how crazy her voice sounded.

So the last few days, I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. My mum went in for an operation on Monday. It's funny - seeing her active on the weekend, then going to Westmead after work on Monday and seeing her immobile and in so much pain. The family's so crippled because of what's happened. We all walk around very worried, we look at the ground so noone sees us tear, and we try to go on with life pretending we're okay with what's going on.

Went to the hospital after work on Tuesday afternoon. She looked better. It seemed that it was only a matter of time before she was up and about again.

Wednesday brought out a lot of pent up emotion between Veed and I in the morning. As a result, I took the day off to bring myself together. I barely settled down at home when I got a call from the hospital telling me that Mum was being moved into the ICU - she was having a bit of trouble breathing the night before. So there was my mid-morning to afternoon. I went to the hospital with Kris and we just waited until we were able to see her. Veed came from work to see Mum too. We went home to rest aroun 5pm only to be called back an hour later because we were informed that she was gonna have to have another operation.

The family was at the hospital all night. I went home early with Katie because I had to work today. But word is, the operation went well and she's just recovering now. I went to see her today and, mate, she looks so helpless. I hate seeing her like that. She can barely open her eyes to see who's come to hold her hand, her heart's beating so fast, and she's attached to countless lines - connected to all sorts of monitors, drainers and medication.

We're doing fine. My dad's having a hard time with it all though so we're trying to be strong for him. My dad cried before he slept last night. It's very hard.

That's all I can think about reporting right now. More later... perhaps. Bye.