expendable

Nothing like a bit of anger to put a bit of numb on the coronary. It's fascinating how the emotion takes away the ability to feel. Absolutely fascinating.

I spent the weekend, from Thursday, at Manly with the famiy.

Friday night drinks were at the Republic Bar, a few of us girls had dinner at Wagamama then we had a few more drinks before dancing it off at Bar333. Minh dropped in with some of her workmates. That was cool coz I haven't seen that girl in a very long time. As much as I wanted to drop into Verandah before going home, my mum was calling incessantly on the cellular so I had to hop on the ferry back to Manly.

Staying at Manly
* I really enjoyed the Ferry ride to and from Manly. It's heaps expensive (one-way is almost three times a one-way from home by train!) though. The views from the ferry definately beat the view from the trains and the ferries I caught were never super crowded.There was this part of the ride to Manly though, where the boat decides it needs to rock really painfully. I got really dizzy then - add a few Friday night drinks and it wasn't really good on the tummy.

* I felt like a foreigner when I was in Manly. There are hardly any Asians there! I couldn't believe it! It was quite interesting considering I see an Asian everywhere I turn here out west. It's like a whole different world in the Northern Beaches.

* Veed and I took a couple of surfing lessons - that was exciting. More on that later though.

* Veed, Mum and I had lunch at Pink Salt on Saturday. My sister really liked the squid and I wanted her to go to the confession room at the restaurant and say "Go SQUIDney!". She refused and I was a bit hurt because I thought that joke was gold. The restaurant is awesome, food a bit overpriced but SO yum!

* Nix, Al and Vin came over on Saturday night. None of us felt like a big night though so we just chatted over icecream from Copenhagen.

* Veed and I tanned quite a bit. Well, I burnt a bit. My nose and my cheeks are red(der than normal).

* I had A LOT on my mind the whole weekend. It's so messed up, so so messed up.

Surfing was excellent! I'm a crap surfer though. I didn't even stand up properly because I think my arms are made of nothing but bones and fat. Everytime I pushed up, I lost balance. By the time I gained balance, I had no strength to hold myself up that little bit more to get my legs through to stand up.

So on my TO-WORKOUT list are the following muscles (if I'm going to make another attempt at surfing someday):
* Chest - I couldn't be bothered working my chest muscles because I'm concentrating on my back muscles these days and I don't want to undo what I do on my back by working my chest out.
* Forearm Muscles - I don't even know how to work these out but I reckon they have to learn how to be more steady for surfing.
* Shoulders and Tri-ceps - because they might as well not be there.
* Calves - because if I ever make it onto my feet, I'm unbalanced because everywhere below my knee is too skinny for the rest of my body.

That's all for now. Should be fun. I'll be a pro-surfer in no time! It's a wonderful feeling, riding a wave - even if I couldn't get up on two feet, just one foot/one knee. It was amazing how, after I got up that far, the wave just took over and I felt like I was flying. Next time, next time for sure!

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I was a bit disturbed this afternoon. I fear that someone I care about very dearly had the comments "poor guy" said about him because his girlfriend's heart is somewhere else. I don't doubt she cares about him but I reckon she'd drop him in a second if she had a chance. I hate that. I really do. I will never understand how people could do that to someone. Seriously, if she hurts him... my is she's gonna get an ear-bashing! His happiness is the only thing that's keeping me from doing it right now.

Okay, that's all I feel like talking about right now. I really don't like this entry. But it'll have to do coz I couldn't be bothered changing it. Bye!