Okay, so I've blogged many times about needing certain things in your life, whether we need certain people in our lives - so today I'm switching it up a bit...
Is feeling needed a need in itself?Weird huh?
I'll give you an example. At work right, there are times when I'm relatively idle and I start wondering whether they really need me there. Like, the world isn't going to end if I'm not there right? That makes me dispensable - maybe good to have, but not tragic to be without y'know? Ok, so I've been there for about 6 months and I realistically can't be more important than people that have been there for ten or fifteen years... but you get me...
Then you think about your other relationships...
Is it not true that we attend to those friends who need us more than to the ones that can manage on their own?
... then, is it possible that we continue to want to feel needed as much as possible? Is it part of our fear of feeling replaceable in the relationship? Do we then do everything in our power to keep close to the people that depend on us, that need us partly because the feeling of being needed comforts us? It's like it gives us some sort of reassurance that that person could never "leave" us because they need us...
Hmmm... just something to think about. I haven't made any conclusions because everyone's different. This is just what I've picked up through observation, through experience. My reasoning might be incorrect but it's how my head explains things to me...
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And just to close up the little discussion from two posts ago...
There are things I'm going to regret not doing, sure. But I'm a strong believer that things that should happen, will happen in time. Sounds a bit na?ve, I know. I guess if you've seen the kind of pain people who were "sure" and had their hearts broken have to go through - and if you've been through it to a degree yourself - enough fear is instilled within you to take the defensive road. It's not enough justification, I know. But it's the road I choose to take.
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What.. up...
* I'm going to the US on Friday - WOO HOO! Y'know what that means... it means, if you want something, you gotta tell me what you want and all soon so I can have some sort of direction while I'm shopping. ALSO, so very importantly, I need some songs to burn onto my MD before I go overseas so I can listen to them on my solo trip to LA. I'm gonna be so bored! Mindy said she'd lend me the last couple ALIAS episodes coz I'll be missing them while I'm over there so I'm bringing Qpac to watch them on. Other than that... PLEASE RECOMMEND SOME GOOD PLANE SONGS so I don't get so bored.
* Friday night was my last night of work, so I stayed back a bit to finish some things I had to do before I left. I had din din with my mum, Veed and the KJ at Sheraton on the Park - so nice so nice! Too bad I wasn't super hungry. I woulda eaten more if I cut back on the lunch earlier in the day aye.
* Last night, Veed and I had a bunch of friends over for a desbidida before we go overseas. Veed's friends rocked up at 7pm-FiloTime (i.e. 8-ish); my friends ended up rocking up at 7pm-SuperFiloTime (i.e. 9-ish). Alisa brought her new Magic Sing chip so we went nuts on songs we don't usually sing, which was real fun. I had a wonderful time last night. It was one of those nights that make me want to stay in Sydney because I'm gonna miss these kids the most while I'm overseas. So much changes in a month aye. But nevertheless, I'm looking forward to seeing the US family bad!
* Minh was a no-show last night. But that's coz she's sick like a dog... there's something going around for sure. I think I'm getting it too. Last night I started feeling all cough-y and sore throat-y... and today I'm a bit runny in the nose. Needless to say, being sick is not something I want right now. So get better Minh... and all the other sick people okay?
* That's all... bye.
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