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Veed pointed a nice quote that would go as another nice prologue to this entry:

"My daddy used to tell me that the first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever, and no matter how hard you try, the feelin' never goes away. This girl you been tellin' me about was your first love. And no matter what you do, she'll stay with you forever"

The Notebook - Nicholas Sparks pp15-6

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Usher ft. Alicia Keys - My Boo

There's always that one person that will always have your heart

Imagine that. That's just nuts. It's a good song though. That's all. It's been a long day, I need rest. Goodnight ya'll.

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Hi Nix =D... that's all hehe.

Dee, hope you had a good night. I (attempted to) explain the reason for my absence. Next time love, next time.

... and to my favourite kind of commenter: the anonymous.
I'm not sure whether you want my opinion about the line, or the song in its entirety, but I suppose they imply the same thing anyway right? So here I go...

First, I'm only 21 years old and the word 'always' to me means the same thing as 'what seems like forever' because, until I'm pushing 40 and looking back on my life, I can't really know if someone has 'always' had my heart.

Second, you have to ask yourself what 'someone having your heart' means to you. Differs from person to person but I think it affects most people the same. I like to believe that to give my heart to someone is to give my heart to them for a loooooooong time, if not 'always'.

I don't know about you, but despite how many times I say I'm 'in love' with someone (relax, I'm kidding 99.99% of the time), it takes A LOT for someone to have my heart. YOu know what else? I don't realise that someone's got my heart until the feelings have consumed me and it's too late to take it back. At the same time, this poor person doesn't realise that I've given them my heart at all. Then, throw in the battle to regain possession of your heart and... it's tragic really.

So I reckon, more often than not, regardless of the number of times you've tried to convince yourself you've taken your heart back, it's still with the person you gave it to in the first place. Unfortunately, one's head doesn't tell one's heart what to do, what to feel. The heart decides on its own whether it wants to stay put or whether it's time to return to the mothership. The time it takes all this heart transfer business to propogate to the head varies from person to person. You're lucky if you're able to register all of this before you've gone too deep.

I also think that, in the same way it takes a lot for someone to have one's heart, it takes just as much of a different energy for one to take their heart back.

I don't think I covered everything, but I've babbled on enough about this. How about I leave you with something that I'm currently uncertain of:

Can you be with someone while your heart is with someone else?

That's it for me now. Good night.