Saturday, May 14, 2005


I graduated on Wednesday. It was a hectic day but well worth the sore back I had at the end of all the various graduation festivities. What I enjoyed most about it was seeing everyone from my life at uni altogether. It was awesome - I even saw someone I seriously didn't think I'd ever see again after first year! Anyway, pics are up on the i-station if you wanna have a squizz. What I really wanna blog is the message in the card my parents gave me this morning (3 days late of course hehe):
Be proud on this day
for the things you've accomplished,
the way you have grown,
and the goals you have met.
Look now to the future
and face it with courage,
and don't waste a minute
of life on regret.
For the future you'll have
will be just what you make it -
be true to yourself
as you follow your star,
For you have the power
if you choose to use it
to reach any dream,
so remember - reach far!
I was touched badly.

Which brings me to what Hoa, Mel and I were talking about on the way home from the post-Graduation dinner - fate. The lengths to which we believe in it, depend on it, use it to reason. I don't really believe in it - which means I don't really depend on it. What I do do is use it to accept the past, or use it to avoid taking risks. Sometimes nothing anyone can say can explain to you why things happen the way they do, why things don't go the way you'd hoped, how things are going to be, how things should be. This is when I temporarily "believe" in fate to accept that things happened because they were meant to and also, that things will happen the way they're supposed to. Of course, once I've completely accepted the past and moved on, more rational reasoning replaces fate. As for the future, I do what I can to get to where I want to go... then I free fall and see where I land.

Something else I want to share from the book that I'm reading on and off:
Fragonard depicted love as a game for the young and innocent, in which both parties knew the rules. But there were no rules anymore. Noone was innocent; they were guarded and cynical, anxious to keep their options open, wary of being trapped yet terrified of missing out.

That's all for now. Bye!

Sunday, May 08, 2005


Watched the first two episodes of ALIAS s4 this evening.
I missed Alias.
I missed my girl. It's funny how I still think I'm her.
I missed - omg - Michael Vartan! He's still yummy.

Anyway, the weekend's been a bit of nothing - bar Friday night when I caught up with the girls and whoever we met or tagged along. It was a good night, even if I had to check out early. Ah well...

Three days till GRADUATION! I've already got my outfit picked out - should be good.

Meanwhile, I'm just cruisin'. It's been interesting. Laters!

Thursday, May 05, 2005


Things I Never Wanted to Hear in the Bathroom

NEL: *picking up toothbrush*
DAD: Oh. Is that yours????????

I almost fainted.

Seeya in my Dreams

So the other night, I had a dream about Lisette. Of all the people I could have a dreamt of, I dreamt about Lisette. I dreamt that I visited her at her place and we just caught up and what not. It was nice, and I had a pretty solid memory of it when I woke up. I commented on her blog and told her about my dream then she e-mailed me to tell me she dreamt about me the same night! FREAKY AYE? I thought that was interesting.

My New "teddy" Equivalent

Some people need to sleep with a bear, a doll, others need to sleep clutching onto a pillo at night. For a week now, I haven't been able to go to bed without holding onto this synthetic stress ball type thing. I didn't realise till last night - when I had to get up and turn on my light after I had gone to bed because I couldn't find it anywhere on my bed.

Living Life

Someone told me last night that I tend to talk about life as if I'm not actually living it. I found that rather unsettling. He told me that I spend a lot of time... trying to figure it out. I tend to disagree with the assertion though because I do live it, I do ride the ride of life - there are just some people that see life at different angles, that like to step out of it and try to look at the bigger picture, that desire to discover its meaning and wonder where it's all leading. I'm one of those people. I've been accused of over analysing once or twice... but I just find the living part of life a lot more meaningful and fulfilling when I've reflected on it a bit.

Ok that's it. I'm gonna bloge-mail now =) Tata!

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

the family meeting

Tonight, when I got home, the family had a meeting to discuss the events coming up in the next couple of weeks:

1. Mother's Day
2. My Graduation
3. Mama's Birthday

We had a meeting that almost went for an hour discussing what we'd do for each occasion, when the activity will be, who'd be coming and, if necessary, what food to prepare. It was such an interesting meeting - emphasising parts of each person's character...

Daddy - indecisive, asks a lot of unrelated questions, doesn't want to be involved in the decision making process unless we're going to Rosehill Bowling Club to eat, drifts off and comes back when we've gone far enough that he'd be lost, asks questions about things we've already decided.

Mama - listens to the arguments quietly, inputs when necessary, accomodating, easy going, the mediator.

Me - impatient, unconcerned with details, procrastinator, short attention span, stresses out when there's too much going on, will settle for the first decent suggestion.

Veed - accurate, pushes organisation, plans with a sense of urgency, pro-active, likes to summarise decisions, likes to volunteer to cook her baked potato, detailed.

It's not the Brady Bunch is it? I love the family.

Oh... I'm going to HAWAI'I! More later... Bye!