* twiddling thumbs *

...

* INHALE *

...

* EXHALE *

... there's no turning back now...

PS. Today was beautiful :)
PPS. Thanks for listening... I'm going to sleep now.

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One more thing... reckon people in relationships have a better knowledge and understanding of the protocols of relationships than people who aren't? If they do, does this knowledge disintegrate once you come out of a relationship? Or maybe it becomes blurred when you've been out of a relationship for - say - over a year?

Because seriously... I sometimes get this feeling that my opinions are deemed invalid coz I've been out of a relationship for a while. It's like... I can't possibly understand because I'm not there.

I guess I don't really care. As long as I'm not going out with a person that's macking around behind my back - I am sweet.

Ahh... so bitter about the male species. Disagree? Come on. You have to at least let me claim the knowledge of the ability of the sleezy/unfaithful/confident male? Thank you.

Jesus, Jesus,
Holy and Anointed One,
Jesus.

Your Name is like honey on my lips,
Your Spirit's like water to my soul,
Your Word is a lamp unto my feet,
Jesus, I love you,
I love you.

Jesus I need you...

Funny how what He has to offer is all that keeps me going when I'm at my lowest.
I can only imagine what it'd be like to love as much as He does.

NEWSFLASH!

1. I am up to Disc 6 of 6 in my ALIAS Season One DVDs - how's that? Season One in one week. Lucky I didn't watch Season One! I woulda been going through withdrawals all week waiting to see WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NEXT?!

2. I finally started learning Java. Just getting into the rhythm... learning stuff I already know, but just drilling it in just for me.

3. I have back dimples! HAR HAR HAR! They're really low in my back so you probably can't see them unless I'm wearing really low-rise jeans. But I'm so proud of them! See, I started to believe I couldn't get them coz it was something that was part of your genetic make-up or not. But I have them! WOOOOW!

4. Gonna go shopping tomorrow! WOO HOO!

5. I like knowing I have one of the Top 20 WAM's in my course!

That's all. My head is spinning... gym took out all my energy. Need to shower. Bye!

I'm still awake because I can be. I had to finish this Industrial Training Report that's due on Friday. I probably don't have enough time to get it done for the rest of the week anyway. I managed to get a V to make sure I didn't procrastinate tonight.

This week is supposed to be my relaxation week. To me, Relaxation = Watching ALIAS Season One DVDs

When I'm not "Relaxing", I've been:
* Looking for RAM unsuccessfully
* Wanting to study Java unsuccessfully (actually, I did some coding tonight - so that's a start right?)
* Working toward the pre-ADORE conference on Saturday
* Doing my Industrial Training deliverables (which are GONE after tonight!)
* Planning little particulars for my party - it's in just over 2 weeks yo! Have not planned anything but the date, time and location. HELP! Nix has done my invites so I might spare some time tomorrow to work on those... once again UNSUCCESSFULLY

Gosh... maybe if I hadn't watched the 10 or so episodes of ALIAS that I have... I'd be on top of some of those things. How dare work give me something so interesting to play with on my week off!

... which reminds me...
* I need to buy KK present for workmate before Christmas Party on Friday =\ OOPS!

ARGH! Not relaxed at all. But I guess the rush is good. I'm wondering what it would've been like if I hadn't taken this week off... hmmm.

Anyways... should I have a marquee at my birthday? I don't really want to because, if it's a sunny afternoon, I don't want to block the sun away y'know? Waddayareckon? Okay... maybe I should wait til after Sunday to plan this crap. What food do you guys wanna eat? Kuf oath how annoying. AAAAAH! Too many questions. No answers.

Why can't time just STOP for a bit? Everything's going too fast for me and I can't keep up with it. BREATHE! It's 3am. I should sleep. Goodnight.

Excuse the rambling. Bye!

I hate it when video clips make the song look crap. I saw Guy's video clip today for "Angels Brought Me Here" - and I was very disappointed. All I can say is, he's lucky he's got an amazing voice - because that was so not an amazing video.

+PLUS+ Oh yeh! and I'm going to the Australian Idol concert in January! WOOHOO! I managed to withdraw almost $700 out of my bank account yesterday just for it. Can we say OBSESSED?

Anyways, yesterday was my last day at SmartSalary. Gosh. It still feels surreal. It's hard to believe that I won't be waking up at 6am Monday morning and heading off to work as I have been for the past year or so. I'm really gonna miss the people there LOTS - they kept me very sane.

It was really sad yesterday arvo, when I got calls from some of my workmates who were in Perth, saying goodbye and all. We had lunch at RETRO which was really nice. Then we had drinks around 5pm where the Dunk made a speech for me and forced me to make one of my own. I was so close to crying man! Anyways, they all pitched in to get me a farewell present. They got me a TV HITS magazine with the top 6 Aussie Idols on the cover - how embarrassing! I also got the whole first season of ALIAS on DVD, and Vida hooked them up with her staff discount to get me some really nice gold earrings!

Cchan got me a little photo box which I thought was really sweet, and Dunk got me "The Best of Friends vol1&2". I don't think I'll be staying away from the TV for the next week!

I headed to RETRO after work with a few of the boys for drinks. My dad picked me up around 11-something and I had to fall asleep straight away before he realised that I was slightly trashed.

In other news, It was Llewol's birthday on Wednesday. I'm currently minimising what I eat today because I'm really excited about eating the whole buffet at his birthday dinner tonight! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATE! My proxy birthday present for you tonight is my little portable TV just in case they're not broadcasting the Rugby at the restaurant.

Anyone wanna take me out next week? I'm gonna be so bored and free. Hm.

Okay bye!

TONIGHT I LEARNT
... that the reason I stopped attaching myself to series' was because anything that happens in it affects me emotionally

Whoever writes the scripts for ALIAS is just plain MEAN.

Good night.

WARNING! WARNING! Please keep Saturday, December 13 free. The thought of losing more of my friends to weekends away and other people's birthday parties isn't very fun.

I watched HOW TO DEAL last night. I have many issues with that movie. Watch it if you want. Love it if you want. I just didn't like how a lot of things turned out.

Anyways, I don't know what to blog, so I'm just going to write a list.

NEL'S LIST OF CRAP
* I did not play Hexic at 1am last night for an hour
* I did not wake up this morning and play Hexic straight away
* I do not go on Ringo to check if people have written stories about me
* I do not get sad when I find out noone new has
* I do not get sad when noone new wants to make me a direct friend
* I do not like anyone... like that
* I do not wonder whether, if things were different, things would be better
* I do not regret anything
* I do not think a lot
* I do not have a bad memory
* I do not wonder whether love can really be amazing
* I do not trust people easily
* I do not think Supre clothes are worth wearing
* I do not dance around my house in front of mirrors when I'm alone on Saturdays
* I do not LOVE Australian Idol
* I do not mind if Shannon wins
* I do not think my $30 worth of votes for Guy will make a difference
* I do not think that temporary "afro" around my blog reminds me of pubes
* I do not laugh at everything
* I did not write this last point just to make this list 20 points long

How's that for a whole lot of bs?

Hi. It's been a pretty uneventful weekend - with the exception of my Nix's birthday :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIX! Last night Veed and I went with Nix, Jess and CYrille to Silver Spur for some eats. Since it took them bloody forever to seat us, they gave us some free garlic bread or something - which managed to fill us halfway or something! I couldn't finish my main coz of it I reckon! But it was pretty good. We all made speeches and their staff came over to sing to her and everything! Lots of fun!

We dropped in at Macca's afterward coz he was having some birthday celebrations (so many November babies!) too. Had to check out early though because we had to be home (yes, we DO obey our parents!).

Anyways... can you tell who I go for in AUSTRALIAN IDOL? I'm going to ignore 1/3 of GUY's performances tonight - and the rest of Australia should too if they know what's good for them! Gonna pick up my $30 credit of Voda credit tomorrow to go on a voting frenzy. Does anyone else need some? Gotta vote gotta vote!

Last, but not least, please go to http://www.mhccrusade.com. If you're even a smidget interested, trust me, you won't regret it. I promise.

That's all for tonight. The rest of my week was uneventful - either that or I don't remember what happened because I'm such a forgetful *bleep*. Bye!

"I just want you to be happy"

The last time I heard those words was in the last episode of Ti3, from Stephanie to her boyfriend Anthony. Okay, so it's easy to assume that she only said it to push him toward the girl that seemed to make him happy in the video footage she saw whilst on the island.

I know I over-analyse but...

What do those SEVEN words mean to you? I think they're beautiful. I think that they can become a statement that expresses a pure abandonment of one's emotions and desires for someone else's happiness. It's a hard thing to do. I guess if you look at the big picture, and believe that whatever happens is supposed to happen then it makes it a whole lot easier. That's all.

In other news...
T'was Lilibeth's birthday on Friday, her celebrations were last night. It was a yummy night! I threw a few pics I took last night up so enjoy, if that's your thing *shrugz*

Loving these songs:
Freestyle - So Slow (Yeh Al... it's awesome!)
Rebekah Lavauney - Dance with You

PeeSouth.

Good Saturday Morning once again :)

Seems the norm for me now. Live the week, then blog it all on Saturday.

NOTEABLE NOTES
* Not very happy about Paulini leaving AI on Monday. I was REALLY looking forward to a Guy/Paulini sing-off in the finals, but I'm beginning to think that the Aussies want to pull another anti-climax and make Shannon win --> \/\/

* Took a day off work on Tuesday to study for my one-and-only exam this semester. IA was boring - and so was the exam. I hate coming away from the subject - not challenged and just as dumb as I was before the semester started.

* "John Cusack"-but-hotter isn't in my Spanish class anymore :(. He switched to the class he was supposed to be in - and the class I was supposed to be in GRR!!

* I bought the Australian Idol Final 12 Album. Don't tease me. Coz I know you all want it in one form or another :)

* Went "for drinks" with "the girls" last night - well that's what I told all my workmates when they asked me what I was doing this weekend. Here:

1. "for drinks" = Cheap dinner at Veda Bar with Minh and I being the only ones downing anything alcoholic; Talking till about 9pm when we headed down to George St. cinemas to watch KILL BILL.
2. "the girls" = Some girls + some boyfriends + Phil

KILL BILL was pretty interesting man. I'm still trying to get my head around it... and I spent 60% of the time watching the movie from behind my hand, but I'm anticipating Vol2! We needed to head home after that, so I got dropped off at Minh's where I saw her "free peeing" puppy (HOW CUTE WAS HE?). Mama picked me up shortly after.

* Got moved from the IT/Accounts/Marketing side of SmartSalary to the Operations side. A little meloncholy because it seems like Stage One of my "leaving" process. Damn.

* Decided that I need to get these 21st plans happening already. Keywords so far: dresses, marquee, bbq. Haven't got anything solid yet. I need some input-age! So be prepared girls, because I'm asking you guys FIRST!

Okay... that's all. TekketEezy. Bye!